Friday, November 26, 2010

Your seams were undone. I tried, and all I wanted is for everything to be the way it could have. After trying to tie up the loose ends, in hopes of crafting a new piece, you started tugging the threads a little too late and I began feeding off every one of the flecks you've sprinkled on me. Why now? I keep taking and taking, and the more I take, the more you're warmly nested in my mind. I'll leave things to be. I'm not intrepid enough. And if I were, I would be terrified unconditionally.

Saturday, August 28, 2010

3. At the moment, there's some sort of hanging guilt for not necessarily knowing what to release of you. I guess it's not even so much that I have anything to say about you that I don't want you to know about. This is mainly what my posts are for, except you know so much already. I enjoy my time with you so much and am gradually growing attached to you. I've yet to know where I stand with you, although the idea is clear already. You provide much more security than I could have ever imagined and are something close to ideal with just being yourself. I love you.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010


Regardless of how hyped up you are, how excessively positively reviewed you are, how your magic is no secret (via public opinion), how all of your picturesque locations induce anyone to tears of disbelief in your beauty, some day...

Saturday, July 24, 2010

This blog has definitely transformed into something now required to contain depth at every post. I like it though, and I don't care if any of you readers mind, let alone, even read what I type. I'll let this post be dedicated to various people whom will surely never read what I've to say about them, maybe they'll know some other time.

1. I love you, and I used to not get along with you that much at some point, but it seems like our separation brings us closer. I'm not sure if you feel it, but I know that I do. Maybe you should know that pessimism doesn't help. To be honest, you dragged me down and a few others to such a low level that all we settled down to was apathy, and closure. I understand that distance is a barrier, but you can not repress yourself for it. If nothing rises, then nothing rises. You simply accept it. However, you manage to complain and if things don't go your way, there's nothing in between for you. Learn to not look at everything either black or white, the world doesn't suck. Neither does your life, for Christ's sake. I'm not going to acquire your qualities anymore. I was too unsettled perhaps for as long as time can remember, but I think I creaked open a door. I'm hoping that you find at least a tint of fulfillment soon. I'm always here for you.

2. You're the only one I have the easiest accessibility to at the moment. However, something we both lack of is fun. When someone's missing, our whole environment changes. I'm sure you're aware of it too, and most of the time you're the one I least know has any feelings present. We open up to eachother, sure. I think you're still trying to find your way through.

not done with this yet

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Friday, April 23, 2010

Here's for humanity

Take away the pains of being too human. You either face unrequited feelings from someone; Sometimes it's you who lacks of reciprocal, causing hurt any way. You want something badly, and yet can not attain it. All that this natural instinct provides is misery. Any way you follow the rules, you end up the same. Even life is this way. Stay for a while, then diminish. You'll stay in the vast records of a beautiful world, but I unlike others, dares not ask the question that precedes. That is why I want to stay away from everything that humanity has amounted to. This does not necessarily imply I rather excplore life through the being of some inanimate subject, I merely possess the curiosity. What I would like to prevent is the closeness of sentiments. Why does a dip in the inexplicable arena called life guarantee uneasiness to every single being? This is not a complaint that inclines towards smooth sailing circumstances, I do understand the difficulties that surface. But every action leads to it, and I do not want to be a part of it. My being is too unprepared.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Take care

I wish I could organize myself, in everything.
My conscious is killing me, and it will not go away.
Too much insanity, and the past has been lost.
Please be good to me.

Monday, February 15, 2010

I can't seem to make it mine

Well, let's see. I think I've done it, I think I am learning. Now I want to figure out how to manage what I aim for. I'm utterly tired nowadays, all I want to do is either lie in bed or lie anywhere that is comfortable next to a specific someone. How did it even amount to this? I have no idea. But I can not let this comfort invade nearly all aspects of thought and activity. I need to hold on to even the thinnest string to climb towards my net of dreams.

Saturday, January 23, 2010


My favorite childhood movie and book series. I was obsessed, not only with the plot and all its wonderous ventures but also the actor that plays the role of Klaus Baudelaire, Liam Aiken.

Monday, January 18, 2010

Thursday, January 14, 2010

Je conaisse le chemin

You came along and you cut me loose

Things are not as complicated as they are set out to be. It's time for changes. A friend told me of her "security blanket". I can not help but concur, you are my definite security blanket and I will never, ever forget that. Now, I must read a few more pages of Into the Wild before I study for a history quiz tomorrow. I will re-read the whole book if it's necessary. Something to remember: Happiness is not only an automatic reaction. You do not need a reason to be happy.

Thursday, January 7, 2010


I want to travel. I want to make it happen. It's my dream, to graduate high school, get out of a comfortable life, become the hardest-working person I know. Know that if there's a will, there's a way. Indulge in this lifestyle, find myself and grow into something I aspire to be. Not lose myself, not even mature, I still want to be the person I am. But be more explorative with myself and my surroundings. I'm naive, but I'm okay with it. I won't let my experiences harden me to stone, if not, sculpture the account of someone that does not want this life to go to waste. Learn new things. Get out. To not be lazy for once, but very active and always seeking for what precedes. If I work hard enough, I know I can acquire what I want.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Growing up

The scattered bits whirled into a subtle wind of exhilaration. This, of course, was only an image that was to be touched by my mind. It merely blossomed a sense of more youthful days, when my surroundings were fully seeped into my being as unexplainable beauty. When happiness was wafted for no reason at all. Every single atom was deeply absorbed like slow respiration. To hold on to hope, it’s beautiful. To desire something so much and for so long is fathomable. It can either be adjusted in a state of comfort but detachment. It can have you faded into endless horizons of anxiety or thought. It can make you miss someone like you have never imagined possible. The richest soils interlock with the rough and unknown surface of concrete when it’s time for it to come. And there’s still more dirt ahead. That’s growing up for you.

Sunday, January 3, 2010


"And to wake up with the sun in your eyes and a little bit of cold in your bones"

Photos by parpadeo

Friday, January 1, 2010



" I be doin' alright, I be doin' okay, and as long as I could live to see another day"

This is what's up: I'm not going to dedicate a combination of words to describe my last year. I had my share of difficulties, emotions, memories... the list is infinite. One thing I'd love to say though, is appreciate and take advantage of whatever you can. I guarantee it will entail goodness. Stand up, fall down. You're free.
Keep on, 2010.

P.S. I took the above quote from "Doin' Alright" by CunningLynguists. I'm usually not tuned into rap, but I thought the chorus was ideal and extending musical horizons is always refreshing