I need rest. I need positivity. I need direction. I need some piece of mind. I need this winter break. I need to study hard. I need to pass my classes. I want good grades. I want to pass my AP tests. I want to be with my mother right now. I want to be what I desire to be. I want to sleep. I want to retrieve the inspiration I lost. I want to feel comfortable. I want you. I miss you. I want to lay on my bed next to you. I wish I weren't self-conscious. I wish I excelled at anything I do. I wish I weren't afraid of letting people in. I wish my home was nice. I wish I could be nearly as smart as you. I wish I could be close friends with you. I wish I could know what to do. But most of all, I hate not knowing.
1) "I've just been thinking too much lately." Seriously. Here presented through words is the account of an over analytical freak that inclines towards perfection. Again, how is achievement really achieved if there is no failure? I can not guess. I'm tired of being tired. The mind is known to do anything but synchronize thoughts. Stress. One more time. It eats you up. Just to help out a friend I told him, "Even if I sucked, I tell myself I did my best. That elevates my mood even if it's a bit". All the advice that is given is never followed by the giver. Don't you ever feel like being so utterly involved in your own bubble makes you become detached from all the REAL situations that are happening out there?
2) Oh hey, I sometimes doubt you, but I was told you might be just what I need. I was contemplating the notion, I still need to figure myself out. Despite my little cluttered up head, I smile because of the effortlessly adorable way you seem. Your character presents such an interesting image. "All I know is, I really enjoyed my time."