I need rest. I need positivity. I need direction. I need some piece of mind. I need this winter break. I need to study hard. I need to pass my classes. I want good grades. I want to pass my AP tests. I want to be with my mother right now. I want to be what I desire to be. I want to sleep. I want to retrieve the inspiration I lost. I want to feel comfortable. I want you. I miss you. I want to lay on my bed next to you. I wish I weren't self-conscious. I wish I excelled at anything I do. I wish I weren't afraid of letting people in. I wish my home was nice. I wish I could be nearly as smart as you. I wish I could be close friends with you. I wish I could know what to do. But most of all, I hate not knowing.