I can't seem to make it mine

Well, let's see. I think I've done it, I think I am learning. Now I want to figure out how to manage what I aim for. I'm utterly tired nowadays, all I want to do is either lie in bed or lie anywhere that is comfortable next to a specific someone. How did it even amount to this? I have no idea. But I can not let this comfort invade nearly all aspects of thought and activity. I need to hold on to even the thinnest string to climb towards my net of dreams.