twenty-ten

HAPPY NEW YEAR

" I be doin' alright, I be doin' okay, and as long as I could live to see another day"

This is what's up: I'm not going to dedicate a combination of words to describe my last year. I had my share of difficulties, emotions, memories... the list is infinite. One thing I'd love to say though, is appreciate and take advantage of whatever you can. I guarantee it will entail goodness. Stand up, fall down. You're free.
Keep on, 2010.

P.S. I took the above quote from "Doin' Alright" by CunningLynguists. I'm usually not tuned into rap, but I thought the chorus was ideal and extending musical horizons is always refreshing

Vendredi

It's like forgetting the words to your favorite song
You can't believe it, you were always singing along
It was so easy and the words so sweet

Ut em

Sanquem.

'Cause it's all me now

I need rest. I need positivity. I need direction. I need some piece of mind. I need this winter break. I need to study hard. I need to pass my classes. I want good grades. I want to pass my AP tests. I want to be with my mother right now. I want to be what I desire to be. I want to sleep. I want to retrieve the inspiration I lost. I want to feel comfortable. I want you. I miss you. I want to lay on my bed next to you. I wish I weren't self-conscious. I wish I excelled at anything I do. I wish I weren't afraid of letting people in. I wish my home was nice. I wish I could be nearly as smart as you. I wish I could be close friends with you. I wish I could know what to do. But most of all, I hate not knowing.

One more week

& I'm sure I'll be doing fine

Numero trois

Little wet tears on my baby's shoulders

1) "I've just been thinking too much lately." Seriously. Here presented through words is the account of an over analytical freak that inclines towards perfection. Again, how is achievement really achieved if there is no failure? I can not guess. I'm tired of being tired. The mind is known to do anything but synchronize thoughts. Stress. One more time. It eats you up. Just to help out a friend I told him, "Even if I sucked, I tell myself I did my best. That elevates my mood even if it's a bit". All the advice that is given is never followed by the giver. Don't you ever feel like being so utterly involved in your own bubble makes you become detached from all the REAL situations that are happening out there?

2) Oh hey, I sometimes doubt you, but I was told you might be just what I need. I was contemplating the notion, I still need to figure myself out. Despite my little cluttered up head, I smile because of the effortlessly adorable way you seem. Your character presents such an interesting image. "All I know is, I really enjoyed my time."

I can wait in this journey

Last day of November. Rummaging for answers in the passing pages of life.

I am sixteen and I am on an expedition to figure about so much.

Quelque jour peut-être

Changes + failures are our biggest fears.

I get it

I'm just a teenager, and I still don't know much of you.

Of a message

from summer of last year. I was fourteen:

----------------- Original Message -----------------
From: Ag,
Date: Jul 8, 2008 11:05 PM


Haha don't worry, you still have time :)
You know what I really feel? I wish there were some kind of place nearby where NO ONE went to. And if they did, it's because they got there by mistake and left. I'd like to go to that place and somehow make it my own. I've recently been wanting to take pictures of tall, thick trees with no leaves covered with moss.